Today is Teacher's day.It was damn fun in class.de class was very active and playful and very childish cos' we play lyk we r lyk a small kid.haha. i blew bubbles.haha.den i blew at alot ppl.i blew mostly on jing xiang.not really.got alot ppl.examples are mei yi,huixian,zhe an,yu xiong,jin hao,arthur and many other ppl.it was very fun.den we invited sum of our subject teachers.den we use party popper den pop at them.haha.very fun loh.if i not wrong...teachers dat came our class was...ms ng(definitely form teacher mah),mrs rum,mdm suhailah,mdm wong and mrs naden.and if i am not wrong ...they had a fun time at our class cos' they smile and laugh.haha.de whole day was very happy.but after sch not.cos' i cant go out.sad.it was teacher's day so i wanted to ask if i could go out wif my friends.They always ask me out den i everytime reject them.even goin their house also cannot.my mom wouldn't allow.i use to tink in primary sch dat my mom would let me go out wen secondary.but no loh.my primary sch friends last time in P6 and P5 also ask me go out but i neva go out wif them before.i was envious.Not even once i go wif them.so i neva took neoprint wif them.i also neva go their hse before.my mom also dun allow loh.i thot cuming to sec 1 mayb can loh but still cannot.i wanted to go out wif my friends today but i knew it cuming dat my mom definitely wont allow me to den nvm.so i thot.since i had de voucher which i havent use...y dun i ask my mom if i go buy those things myself den she say ok.den i tink i can use tis chance to go out wif my friends...den yesterday i confirm wif my mother den she say can as my sis say she dun wan go wif me.den i also tell xiao mei and carine dat i will go out wif them den at nite...my sis say she will be goin.den she told my mom.den my mom wanted me to go wif my sis den my friends.den i tink...nvm lah .mayb next time den go wif my friends to shopping centre or hse or watever place.at least can go out.den PEI HAO GAN QING.den today my sis say she dun wan go buy le.den my sis wan buy those things wif me.so i cannot go out wif my friends to buy things or watever.haix.how i really hope she ask me to buy myself those things in popular today den i can go out.den no reason to go out u tink my mom allow me to go out.OF course not loh.so sad.so upset.so disappointing.my friends once ask me if my mom really cared for me...cos' my mom dun wan to help me alter skirt and gif me sum freedom.My friend say dat is also consider as a kind of care.U care abt de feeling.and care abt whether happy or not happy.i really hope she could gif me sum freedom.atually i now suppose to use com but i used.cos' she not at home den even she know i use den she will nag and nag.feel so stranger to my sisters and parents.i dun tell them my secret and they dun too.not very close lah.cos' i everytime tell my sis(one)den she will start scolding or sumthing.sumtime i really hope to share wif her my stuffs.den everytime...she will say sumthing bad or scold.den always she will say i atitude problem.dunno y she felt dat.i dun tink carine tink i altitude problem loh.sigh.i look forward to de time where i truly achieve freedom.i dun mind little bit only.