♥ Wednesday, November 12, 2008
i have been tolerating her for the past week
for always giving me the kind of face which i didnt liked.
she was always giving in to me
but recently, i really couldnt tolerate some of the things
when i commented on her singing,
i didnt meant as an insult.
i was praising. becos it was rather special and unique.
she misunderstood and scolded.
at that very moment when she scolded me,
i held back my tears.
i held onto my phone and i sms my friend
i sms him how much i felt like going home at that very moment.
i couldnt stand the way and manner she said abt S.H.E
i didnt understand y she have to say until liddat
abt S.H.E i was so fedup, i pretended not to hear
i kept quiet for a very long moment
whenever i talk abt *pineapple,
actually i did purposely said abt *pineapple
but i nvr had the intentions to tell who it was
i wanted to tease xm
and when everyone's gone, she will give me the look
and sort of "scold".
even before that day when we quarrel,
we alrdy had problems.
she was sort of tolerating me.
i was also tolerating her very much.
i tried to shorten the gaps
while she was playing her psp,
i tried to show my concerns.
when we were walking opposite for lunch,
i tried to talk abt some topics
yet i guess it got worse.
during lunch,
that was when i comment abt her singing.
she said: Shut up can anot?
i felt.. angry? pissed? upset? disappointed?
returned to dance studio.
she asked me if i wanted to go with her to find xm.
i was too pissed and i said no.
wad hurt most was wad she said.
"its becos there is fun then you will go wad"
which means when i need her or when i have fun
then i will find her.
and when i no longer need her or if there's no fun,
i will not find her.
this was wad she meant i guess.
i felt .. out
our mindset changed so much
that we couldnt understand each other.
and this included xm
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